There will always be an old world explanation and it will be indisputable and undisputed.
I have no idea what’s out there and I don’t want to know. Not ever.
I have no memory of ever committing any real crime and know I haven’t. But it’s hard to stay relevant when the gap between each group is so vast. So I have no idea if that’s even a thing.
Or if anyone will read this…
What I can say is whatever’s out there. I probably have an explanation you would never believe. But then again, just wait… They’ll finish this thing perfectly.
But only if they use their powers to keep me here long enough.
Even if there’s nothing actually out there, yet. Just wait. The system is infallible.
Like I said, it’s hard to know what’s relevant.
Don’t ever come talk to me about it.
Im sure you’ll just laugh, or hate, or ridicule, or judge, or show the disgust I’ve been witnessing for ten years for reasons I’m not even aware of.
But I guess that’s just because I’m fucking stupid. Anyone else would have beaten this crazy system easily.
It’s not perfect or anything.
But careful how you choose the context. The sarcasm only extends to the last couple of lines.
I know you all know better than me.
That’s a fact.
But it’s more complicated than that. At least for 50% of you.
Who the fuck knows what the numbers are and how many are actually in the new world group. You won’t ever know unless you’re in it.
I could tell you how to find them but I won’t.
After all.. There’s only a very small group of people in the world that know everything about EVERYTHING…. right?
And have the tech to match….
Fucks me. I probably shouldn’t be saying any of this shit I don’t even know. I’m kind of just a passenger here.
Like I said I ain’t smart enough for this shit and there’s no sarcasm in that.
But please don’t come to my house with torch in hand because I’ve been flying blind for a decade and don’t know why any of this has happened.
And there’s nothing but truth in the statement ‘I don’t ever want to know.’
So I guess it came full circle.
You’re going to do whatever you’re going to do and you will do it with total confidence in your understanding.
I no longer have the desire to try and bridge that gap and no longer wish you would.
My fate was sealed when I heard the hell screams from the abandoned hospital late 2007.
It wasn’t real by the way.
Just before things started to be manipulated. Ironic that I wrote a weirdly dark and stupid letter and sent a shitty text just before this shit started.
But again, it’s hard to stay relevant when I have no idea why the fuck this happened.
I just wonder if any of this would be possible without that letter and shitty text to set my scene.
Since they were already fucking with shit.
But I can’t throw responsibility out the window. I don’t understand ‘RNM’ well enough to know how much was me and how much was them.
But I digress…
Just go back up to the line, ‘I guess it came full circle and stop there.’
Otherwise things will probably get twisted. Or some shit.
Or maybe I’m just paranoid.
But is it really paranoia if the whole world really is out to get you?